And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.- ROMANS 8:28 NLT
This verse became my favorite one when life events proved this verse to be true. I love God. I love Him with all my heart. When I gave my life to Christ, everything started to fall into place. I will share two instances…
One: I always felt i needed a man to love me to fill the hole in my heart that was there from being separated from my birth parents. (I was adopted.) I was in a relationship after high school that went from bad to worse. He was emotionally and sexually abusive. I didn’t have anyone to talk to who was mature and not my parents so I felt stuck in the relationship. I thought I was going to be damaged forever from both problems.
God is using these unfortunate situations for His good and my good. I realized that I wanted to start writing about my experience and how I am continuing to heal. I also decided I wanted to be there for teens and adolescents who might be or get into similar situations. God made me realize that I should go to school for youth ministry.
Two: Because of the abuse that I endured, I was limited as to what jobs I could get. He limited me to part time, and there were only a few good part time jobs I could get which were mainly cleaning positions. I liked cleaning because it helped with my anxiety, but it also limited my skills that I needed for future positions. So I started to clean full time. I ended up at a really unprofessional company. I started to look for office jobs because I’m also limited on my mobility. A good portion of the positions that I found were through temp agencies that require you not to have a current job so you can start your new one as soon as possible. I was ready to quit my job but was scared. I believe it was God, but I got fired! Yes, fired! It opened so many doors. So I started to volunteer at my church to work with the high school pastor to obtain office skills AND get some experience with youth ministry! That can only be God!
God used my dirty past to create a wonderful future.